Frustrated and Alone...

Building a home, in my opinion, is done for several reasons:

1. Establishing stability by putting a roof over your head
2. Building a foundation to frame the roots of life
3. Providing a sanctuary that the family forever feels safe and secure 
4. Always having a place to go that you can call "yours"
5. And, most importantly HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS....

When I sit at home these days I feel that I've succeeded in providing my family with ALL five points above.  The only problem is I sit frustrated and alone...URG!

My husband is wonderful!  He and I have grown to enjoy every minute we have with each other.  As I sat on the deck last night I caught myself telling him that he made me happier than anyone I've ever encountered in my life and that I was grateful he chose me to be his wife of 24-years this year.  Then solitude kicked in...the feeling of being alone...the cause of the feelings...MY NEIGHBOR!  Laughter, story telling, music, and children playing echoed off the back of our house.  And sadness over came me...then frustration ensued...although my life with Mark is rich with comforts I am truly frustrated and alone!!!

I miss laughter, chaos of children/adults running about, music playing loudly, most importantly I miss the comradery of family interaction. Sometimes it feels like my house isn't even alive anymore.  Unfortunately there is no cure for this - we have done all we can do.  Our newly inherited motto is "it is what it is"...simply meaning if what we have to offer isn't good enough then we have to accept "it is what it is".  We aren't the ones missing out on US...